I have been at a loss about what to post today – for several days my mind was blank except for one topic.
Foster care and adoption
I’ve shared my heart and my story a bit here on the blog in hopes of opening up the eyes of everyone – to find that little spot where you can make a difference in someone’s life. I have said it before and I will continue to say it….. not everyone is meant to adopt or even do foster care, but there is always somewhere you can lend a hand – there is a need to fill.
As for everyone, this time of year is busy. I wanted to slow down this season and focus more on the important…. I am trying, but it is still a work in progress. I’ve been a bit under the weather and keeping up with regular tasks in addition to the extra things that come with the holidays has taken it’s toll. I have been hearing a whisper in my ear to remember this season and what happened to us four years ago.
You see, four years ago during this time we were introduced to a precious little boy looking for a forever home. My life was thrown a curve ball and it was, as I reflect, one of the most treasured times that I can remember – with it being Christmas.
As I look over some photos of when Jacob first arrived in our home, tears form and I began to not only remember but FEEL that time, deeply. (I managed to dig up a few, sorry they are a bit blurry). Sometimes we really need to take the time to let our hearts open back up and feel. I can be really good at stuffing things, thus not allowing good or bad to flow out or in. It is something God is working with me on.
I remember getting to know this 12 month old little boy, playing with him on the floor, adjusting to his behaviors which were a little different than what I was used to, listening to Christmas music in the background and eventually helping him transition into our home full time. I would never in a million years imagined I would become the mom of a little 12 month old. I had no idea what God still needed to develop in my life, and still don’t.
I shared the complete story in a blog post and you can read that if you missed it before. God weaving an amazing story that I often take for granted and unfortunately forget.
As a mom who has older kids, this time of year can honestly get a bit more tedious than joyous. I hate to admit that, but I am. The chore of decorating for some reason this year has become overwhelming….. I am thankful for a husband who is willing to push ahead when I am worn out.
So I truly believe that God is whispering into my ear to slow down, focus on what it was like four years ago. The wonderment of a new person entering our life, the incredible grace of our God to bless me with this little boy who challenges me everyday to be more of who God wants me to be.
I need to reflect…. to slow down…. to remember. God is trying to weave my story even more with His influence and amazing grace, if I just listen and respond.
Is God trying to whisper in your ear – are you ready to listen? Or are you like me and being a bit stubborn?
How can you take some time to allow His voice to be heard in all the busy and overwhelm?